Saturday, February 21, 2009

A little fuzzy.

Today I am just that. A little fuzzy. Let me give you some examples: First of all, I was on my way back to the hospital after a shower and a short nap, talking to Chris on the phone about running by Panera to get a bagel that I was desperately craving. Keep in mind, I was about 1/2 mile from Panera at this point... and for some unknown reason, I find myself in the parking garage of the hospital, driving right past my spot...with NO bagel in hand. I had completely blanked out and forgotten to go by Panera...

Before I left my mom's house to come back, I had a bottle of lotion. I was planning to put some on my legs before I left. At this very moment, I have no idea what I did with the bottle of lotion before I left and I know for a fact that I didn't put any on my legs! Not to mention that I had every intention of folding the blankets that I used, and I have NO idea if I actually did...!

In driving out of the Parking Garage this afternoon to take Grace home for a nap, I was consciously reminding myself: 'pay attention, Jamie, you are driving...don't let your eyes go blurry...'

Now I am worried that they need to check me out before they let me leave...? Do you think that I have cancer, or maybe early onset dementia? This is crazy. I know that I can be farily forgetful (losing my keys regularly etc.) but nothing like this. It's a little scary... In saying all this, pray for my mind... I can't seem to concentrate on anything, remember things, or keep my eyes in focus for longer than a few minutes at a time. Maybe it is just that I am extremely tired.

I thought I'd get more sleep with Harper being here in the hospital...not so, my friend! There are so many alarms that go off all night, she is in a 'tent' so her cries are quieter...therefore I have to sleep extra light in order to hear her. Nurses are coming in all the time, residents, doctors and the like make their rounds at the exact moment that I drift off to sleep...finally!

Maybe I'm just tired... I hope so.

On another note, here are a couple of pictures. The only time I am able to hold Harper is when I am feeding her, so today I snuck in a few extra minutes because I could tell she still had a little gas in her tummy and needed to burp...(wink, wink). Also Grace Ann came by today and stayed for a while. There are so many cool things for kids in this hospital, and she had fun running around, playing on the stage, with the butterflies, watching the train, and taking care of 'her baby.' As you can tell, she was completely exhausted when I took her home... She was really cute, just like a little mama.

Hanging out with the Harps...makin' sure she is OK...

Worked so hard taking care of baby sis and playing a little too. (This is kind of what I want to do right now!)


Anonymous said...

Jamie, this is the time to give yourself some grace. You are doing great, hang in there girl. We are praying for all of you.

The Williams said...

Jamie, Chris, Grace and Harper -
We are praying for all of you! For rest and sleep, healing and more rest! Jamie - you are fine, just sleep deprived. It does happen when moms have sick babies, especially those who are hospitalized. Give yourself an opportunity for some good sleep!
love to all the Burtons!
Dana and Susan W. Family

Anonymous said...

We love you guys and we are so sorry you are going through this. We'll keep praying for healing for 'Little H' and rest for her poor mama. Please let us know if there is anything at all that we can do to help.